BXBX NOVEL Chapter 195 - Why Now ?
Chapter 195 - Why Now ?
Father Lin first checked Xiao Shuyan , once Doctor Gu confirmed that Xiao Shuyan was really alright , only then Father Lin heaved a sigh of relief . After confirming Xiao Shuyan \'s condition , he turned to look at his two son who were staring at him with vigilance and resentment . Though there was some relief and comfort flickering in their eyes , but the majority of their emotions were negative .
Father Lin stiffened and then he turned around to look at Xiao Shuyan , seeing that the boy was still asleep , father Lin asked a nurse to take care of the kids before he brought his sons outside the medicine hall .
Lin Yan and Lin Yu wanted to listen what their father had to say for himself so they quietly followed him outside , though their faces were still taut with anger and resentment . Lin Yan still gave the nurse who was taking care of Xiao Shuyan a hundred copper coins to brew medicine for the child .
Their anger was a different matter and taking care of this sick child was? different .
" they are not mine " said Father Lin at once , after the three of them came out of the medicine hall " those kids are the kids of my benefactor , the one who saved me after I drowned in the river because of the flood -my good brother and his wife .." father Lin broke away but there was no need for him to continue on with his sentence , because even without him completing the sentence , Lin Yan and Lin Yu understood that most likely the couple lost their lives because of the flood.
" they left their kids under my care . I\'m those kids Godfather you see " continued Father Lin blocking away his tears " that\'s why those kids call me father originally they called me Godfather but later on it became a painful reminder for those kids , every time they called me godfather , they would remember that they no longer have anyone in the world . So , I asked them to call me father .. their parents were really good to me . Its only natural that I am good towards their kids , after all I don\'t want these kids to think that they are orphans with me here "
Lin Yan cold face warmed up slightly on the other hand Lin Yu \'s face that was stiff and stoic also lost some of its anger . However , the two of them still had many questions to ask therefore Lin Yan? only muttered an \' En \' while Lin Yu simply stared at his father coldly though the fists that were clenched on his sides told how agitated and nervous he was!
" If you were al…alright why didn\'t you return ?" asked Lin Yu tilting his head slightly as he looked at his father in front of him " It has been more than ten years since you were gone , d…do you have any id…idea how much mo…mother suffered because you were gone !"
For the first time Lin Yu hated his stuttering more than anything in the world . He was clearly angry and enraged but because of his stutter he couldn\'t really let go of his anger completely . He didn\'t hate his father for leaving them for ten years but the reason he couldn\'t forgive his father \'s absence was because of his mother\'s sufferings ! If his father returned would his mother\'s health deteriorate so much ? Would his mother go around asking for work at the embroidery shop , so that she could earn a little money for her sons ? Would the old Yu family suppress and trodden on his mother until his mother\'s illness flared so badly that she started to fall sick every now and then ? And even if ignored his mother\'s suffering could he ignore his brother\'s sufferings ? Can he forget how his elder brother almost lost his life ? Can he forget how his second brother was? almost r*ped by that old mistress ?Will he ever forget how his third brother was beaten until he almost died ? Or will he ever be able to forgive the helpless expression of his fourth brother when Grandma Lin told him that he could no longer study ? Even now fourth brother\'s tears were still fresh in his mind , even though it has been years - his fourth brother who always smiled like the gentle wind of spring cried for the first time that day ! Even if he forgot his pain and sufferings when he was thrown off the cliff - he will never forget his family\'s sufferings !
" Why co..come now ! Why are y..you only here now ! Why didn\'t you return b..before - if you di..did , if you di..did " Lin Yu broke away , his eyes turned red as all the resentment that he had buried in his heart broke free . Though the brothers acted like they all were fine after they lost their father but in fact , their father was the pillar of their family . Once he was gone , Lin Yu and his brothers felt as if they were being squashed by the sky itself!
They have seen their mother fretting over the smallest expense - had seen her work till four in the morning before going out on the fields and plowing the land without any rest . If they didn\'t see their mother suffering so much , then their eldest brother wouldn\'t have ever went to hunt at such a tender age of sixteen .
They have slept on hungry stomach , they have suffered through ailments and illness without medicine . They had gone past storms and now when everything was alright their father returned , now that they no longer needed their he came back - why did he have to return now ? Why not earlier when they all wanted him ?When they needed him ?
However , no matter how much Lin Yu resented his father for his absence ,he was still really glad to see his father alive and well .
Lin Yan saw his little brother crying and immediately embraced Lin Yu .. He knew that no matter how much this brat liked to act as a big boss , his heart was soft and warm - Lin Yu could pull small tricks but he was still a sixteen year old boy - still a child who haven\'t seen the world .