BXBX NOVEL Chapter 420 - 12.28
"I am all alone in this world. And I thought I will be alone forever. I don\'t even plan on taking a wife since my heart never beats for someone else in my life. But when I met you…"
"Bai Yunyu, you\'re the one whom I love. My star crossed lover."
…
Xu Jiansheng kissed Yunyu\'s cheek lovingly and then staring at him with both love and obsession, "Yunyu, I have no demand for you. I don\'t want you to do anything for me, just… stay by my side and love me back. Because I will always love you, with just one glance, I will always come to you."
"Even through many eras, many worlds, many lives, I will always love you, Bai Yunyu. No matter how much I have to sacrifice for you, even if I have to die for you, I will never let you get hurt. As long as I\'m here with you, I will always protect you."
"And what I want from you other than love is just one…" Xu Jiansheng placed his palm on Yunyu\'s chest, where the heart should be beating, but he didn\'t have any beating heart since he was dead.
But it didn\'t stop Jiansheng from uttering his feeling, "I want your honesty, Bai Yunyu."
Yunyu felt like a piece of driftwood washed away by the torrent of emotion by Jiansheng\'s confession. He felt like he didn\'t deserve it, just like when he saw Aaron Xu… no, even before that. Just like when he kissed Mamoru Ito, dated Zerocheat, pampered by Aaron Xu, and now protected by Xu Jiansheng.
He felt undeserving of such kindness and attention, knowing how much of a piece of crap he was, especially after he saw that Ragemeter world. Whenever he met with Aaron Xu and now Xu Jiansheng, he still felt undeserving.
\'I still think that you deserve someone better, rather than me. Jiansheng, I am not a good person...\' Yunyu thought. \'You\'re too kind for me, Jiansheng. I feel like I fit better with Master Han Ye. We are toxic, with a lot of pain in our relationship. But we will always be drawn together in the end…\'
\'But you\'re so gentle to me, I can\'t help but feel shitty about myself…\'
"Xu Jiansheng, when you said stuff about many lives, many eras, many worlds… did you recall something?" Yunyu asked.
"… it\'s just like an intuition…" Jinsheng replied.
\'So he doesn\'t know about his past lives,\' Yunyu thought. \'It\'s good that he doesn\'t know how horrible I am.\'
Yunyu put his palm on top of Jiansheng\'s hand and replied, "I don\'t know what kind of honesty you need. But I have nothing to hide against you, and I will try my best not to disappoint you, Jiansheng."
…
Xu Jiansheng\'s gaze darkened when he heard that. He gritted his teeth silently and took a deep breath to calm himself down. He then closed his eyes for a second and opened it again to resume his gentle gaze to Yunyu, who was sitting on his lap.
"I will always love you no matter what you do, Yunyu," Jiansheng said as he kissed Yunyu\'s nape.
Bai Yunyu kept staring at the letters and map filled with many crosses in it, probably symbolling the crossed region had successfully rebelled.
In only three months, there were many crossed region on this map, which meant that Huang Shu\'s power wasn\'t entirely stabilized. He failed to realize that Bai Yunyu played a significant role in his reign. He might never hog the attention, but he was probably the one who could push Huang Shu to reach the height that he had right now.
And he banished Yunyu because he felt he didn\'t need this infertile ger anymore. He already had everything the world could offer anyway.
Now Yunyu was in a big dilemma. He wanted to request Xu Jiansheng not to rebel, but then again, he felt that Huang Shu had it coming with all his ambition and cruelty.
\'If I told Jiansheng not to attack, then I will just hurt Jiansheng. Huang Shu has robbed everything Jiansheng had, especially his parents. So Jiansheng must\'ve been tortured in his heart, seeing the murderer staying high above, praised as the Golden Emperor by the people. While he was left broken…\'
Bai Yunyu gulped. He had to make an important decision now. After he put Xu Jiansheng into his consideration, he knew that blatantly asking him to stop his revenge will be a humiliation and betrayal for Jiansheng.
And yes, Huang Shu had neglected his country after so much conquer and cruelty, the empire would fall down sooner or later with all his neglect.
\'And in the end, I still need Huang Shu to use that Rewind Stone that he hides somewhere…\' Yunyu thought
…
"Jiansheng…"
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Have you set upon your decision on whittling down Huang Shu\'s power and start a revolution in this Empire?" Yunyu asked.
There was a long pause on Xu Jiansheng until he opened his mouth and replied with a short, "I have."
Bai Yunyu closed his eyes, this empire… he helped to build it in a short time for Huang Shu. But maybe it was time for it to be destroyed as well, just like how his heart had been shattered. Hopefully, Huang Shu will use the rewind stone, and they could start anew.
Maybe they could fix their misunderstanding in the next restart. At least that was what Yunyu expected, since he still didn\'t know how that Rewind Stone truly function.
But Yunyu didn\'t want to burn the Imperial Palace, because he didn\'t want Huang Shu to get too stimulated. He knew how crazy and unpredictable Master Han Ye\'s souls were if they got triggered or overstimulated with emotion.
…
Bai Yunyu finally decided upon himself. He didn\'t dare to look at Jiansheng, so he kept looking forward, watching the beautiful garden, and said,
"Then I will allow you to destroy it."
"But please, don\'t burn the Imperial Palace, let it persevere."