BXBX NOVEL Chapter 459 - 12.67
"I love you… my ger wife…"
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Yunyu opened his eyes soon after he touched the egg-shaped jade stone, the Rewind Stone. The overflowing memory kept inside the Rewind Stone flooded his brain until it stimulated and restored his consciousness.
He stared at the ceiling for a while, still trying to grasp what happened to him after Huang Shu used the Rewind Stone back then.
He still remembered that Huang Shu stole some of his memories and store them inside the Rewind stone, a sort of mind manipulation. So he didn\'t remember everything, especially that part when he was thrown to the Cold Palace and died out of starvation and malnutrition.
But it was also him who put the Rewind Stone in Yunyu\'s hand before he passed away.
The memories of the first timeline, when Yunyu and Huang Shu first met, but Huang Shu failed to claim the throne. The second timeline where they got married, and Yunyu got thrown to the cold palace, and the third timeline…
Yunyu closed his eyes again, allowing the Rewind Stone to restore all his memories in this world.
Slowly, a tear dropped from the edge of his eyes, not knowing what to do right now. He was battling with his own dilemma after he received his memory.
\'Huang Shu, in the first world, where you met with the Bai Yunyu in this world, it seems that you\'ve fallen in love with him so deeply that you make him your lifetime achievement.\'
\'That\'s why when you fail for the first time, you rewind time and started everything from scratch. You killed Crown Prince because you think the only way to get me is by becoming the Emperor.\'
\'But you never think of me as a human. You think of me as a trophy wife for you to enjoy. You don\'t see me as a person that loves you. So when you get too busy with life, you think I\'m just a discardable trophy.\'
\'Now, in the third timeline, you start everything again. You try to fix your mistake to lift your guilt. You hid my memory, so you think everything will be alright here. But everything turned out just like before. There is no good here as well.\'
\'You think by keep rewinding time, you will get your true happiness…\'
Bai Yunyu turned his body to the side, he was still weak, and he predicted his legs couldn\'t even move for now. He gently caressed Huang Shu\'s cheek that was still warm, as if he still had life inside his body, but not for long, though.
His Husband still looked as handsome as he remembered, and he was younger as well. In the previous timeline, he was already deranged because of guilt, his beard was unkempt, and he looked haggard. But in this world, he was still twenty two years old. He still looked young, vigorous, and handsome.
Both Yunyu of this world and Bai Yunyu felt the same connection to Huang Shu.
Their hearts tell them that Huang Shu was his beloved, his soulmate, the other side of the red string of fate.
Yet, they hurt each other.
Bai Yunyu smiled and wiped the last wet tears at the edge of Huang Shu\'s eyes. He called with by his real name, just once.
"Han Ye, we kept on hurting each other in so many worlds. I started to wonder if this is real love or a toxic one."
"If this is a toxic one, then why do I keep falling in love with you? Just like how you keep falling in love with me. What\'s the point when we only hurt each other…"
Bai Yunyu still hadn\'t recovered his full memory of his life with Master Han Ye. But after so many worlds, he started realizing few things, and there were two glaring things here.
If we were in love with each other, then why would we hurt each other?
What was the point of love that kept on hurting?
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"Husband, you wasted three timelines to hurt yourself. And I wasted three timelines only to be a wasted ger, just to fill our happy family fantasy…."
Bai Yunyu received the memory about Huang Shu\'s death just now. He was poisoned by Xi Yue and would rather die than taking the antidote from that bitch.
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\'Wife, I will return your memory, everything about us, including my sins, to you. I don\'t know what you will do with the Rewind Stone. You may leave me here, rotting alone while you leave the palace, continue with your life.\'
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"It\'s not that easy, Husband. You think I can just leave you like this. You kept on hurting me, but I kept on crawling back to you, wishing that you would finally understand that I just want your love."
"I don\'t need anything grandeur. I just want you."
It took a while until Yunyu called Pupa.
"Pupa, are you here?"
Pupa materialized in front of Yunyu, still with that ridiculous Sailor Moon wig.
Yunyu giggled and pointed at that Sailor Moon wig, "It seems that you like it so much, Pupa."
Pupa just realized what was on its head. It rolled around on the ground, trying to take it off.
After Pupa could take it off, it used a code, "Code 9: Blaze."
The wig was burned to ashes. Pupa even went as far as burning it twice, just in case.
"Awww, I actually like Larva a lot! It is so cute and supportive, unlike you, Spicy Chicken System!"
"I am a lot more competent than my past self. What could it do anyway? Crying when you don\'t give it enough attention? Peh! Disgusting!"
"Hey, hey, at least Larva is great emotional support. A lot cuter as well!"
"Forget about that thing. My shell rattled whenever I remembered it," Pupa said.
Pupa floated on top of Yunyu and Huang Shu, and then it commented, "Hm, I see that Huang Shu has died, but he is still kind enough to give you the Rewind Stone."
"And I still don\'t know his intention. Why would he give me this? He kept saying that he feels guilty, so he gave me the Rewind Stone for me to decide." Yunyu pondered. "If he genuinely wanted to prison me, he could just use the Rewind Stone on himself."
"That\'s because he thinks he has robbed your freedom and happiness for the sake of his selfish love. He trapped you over and over, so he thinks it\'s better for you to decide on your life."
"Bai Yunyu, you should\'ve realized this. I got Larva\'s memory now, though I also don\'t understand what happened with you and Master Han in the past… But one thing I\'m sure of, this is what I retain from Larva\'s memory.
"Master Han truly loves you. That\'s why Huang Shu still loves you no matter how much you two went through."
"I know, but what\'s the point if we keep hurting each other?"
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Pupa wanted to say something to respond, but it had no good answer for it. Obviously, based on the memory it retained from Larva, Master Han and Master Bai truly loved each other.
But why did it get destroyed to this extent?
Yunyu turned to Huang Shu\'s side again, and then he said, "Huang Shu, since you\'re giving me a chance, then I will give you a chance also. Maybe we hurt each other because we are together in the wrong place."
"Don\'t you think so, Larva?"
"What?" Pupa asked.
"Maybe Huang and I… we love each other, at the right time, with the right person… but in the wrong place."
"Since he said that he became the Emperor for me, let me see if that word is true from his mouth."
"If I am the one that his heart longs for, then he will come to find me. But if it is just a passing love that is replaceable, just like what he did by replacing me with Xi Yue in the second timeline… then let him be."
"Let him choose, without the memory of me, his Ger Wife Bai Yunyu, and without the memory of previous timelines and the memory of owning this Rewind Stone."
"You will store some of his memory inside that Rewind Stone?" Pupa asked again. "You should know this is the last chance for you to use the rewind stone. Don\'t be hasty. If you used it, later on, it might create something terrible."
"I don\'t care about the repercussion. What\'s worst, that could happen anyway… Pupa, you don\'t know how painful this feeling is."
Yunyu clutched his chest with one hand while holding the Rewind stone with the other.
"I will return his memory if he chooses me. But if he chooses to be the Emperor instead with his harem full of beautiful Ger men and women, then so be it. I will let him be happy."
Bai Yunyu crushed the egg-shaped jade stone for the last time.