BXBX NOVEL Chapter 743 - RW 1.38
"How can I forget it? We have a long story. We experience a lot of things together. It\'d be an insult to forget you, right?" Yunyu said as he leaned on Long Shen\'s warm chest.
Yunyu could hear the racing heartbeat of this man, and he wouldn\'t lie that meeting Long Shen was probably the moment when he realized that he wasn\'t as innocent as he looked.
Of course, he already knew there was something behind his transmigration when he entered the first original world to save the soul of Kim Taewoo and Kim Kibum.
But it was really vague for him. Not until he reached world 10 and met with Long Zhen, he realize there was something a lot more sinister going on.
Long Shen bit his lips as he tried to hold this overflowing emotion. But his emotion was like a dam that had accommodated way too many feelings, from longing, regret, confusion, and… love.
Slowly, tears pooled on his eyes and streamed down on his cheek to Yunyu\'s neck.
Of course, Yunyu could feel the emotion overflowing in Long Shen right now, and he fully understood why.
"I\'m sorry that our separation is very abrupt. I\'m sorry for leaving you too early," Yunyu apologized. He remembered how he left the original world of Long Shen.
"You… you slowly disappeared and turned into butterflies in front of me, I cannot even hold you, Yunyu," Long Shen said. "I\'ve been waiting for years until the time I can hug you again, embrace you and never let go."
"Please… please don\'t disappear. I… I don\'t know what to do without you. It feels so empty…." Long Shen begged as he buried his face on Yunyu\'s shoulder.
"Don\'t worry, I\'m here now. I won\'t disappear anymore. And don\'t worry about our memory, I never forget you since the day I left…."
"You shouldn\'t forget about me, about us! Even if we have a terrible memory together, but I cherish every moment I have with you, Yunyu," Long Shen said. "Even as Long Zhen, in my vivid dream, I remember how I—How I cheated on you, ruined my chance to be with you in that world."
"I also remember about my horrible treatment to you when you\'re being my assistant," Long Shen couldn\'t control himself whenever he remembered how horrible he was to Yunyu. Slowly, he released his tight embrace and kneeled in Bai Yunyu.
"I… I am a horrible man, Yunyu," Long Shen admitted as he slowly lowered his head, about to kiss Yunyu\'s shoes. He thought it was the best way to show that he was sorry, and he wanted to beg for Yunyu\'s forgiveness.
But Bai Yunyu didn\'t want that, so he crouched and grabbed Long Shen\'s arms, "Look at me, Long Shen."
Long Shen looked up, their eyes met, and the tears in Long Shen\'s eyes flowed even more than before, "Do you not forgive me?"
"Aish, you\'re too much. I\'ve long forgiven you. Don\'t do this to me, okay?" Yunyu gently wiped the tears in Long Shen\'s eyes and cheeks, then kissed him at the edge of his eyes. "Don\'t cry in front of me. All of our pain and suffering is a long story in the past. We should remember it, but don\'t torment yourself with it, Long Shen."
…
Long Shen couldn\'t believe how easy it was for Yunyu to forgive him.
He might not experience it firsthand. He was also unsure whether it was just a dream or his life in the past.
But Long Shen dreamed everything, from his life as Long Zhen, then his life as Long Shen. It was filled with pain, torment, drama, and redemption.
And the main actor was always him and Bai Yunyu in any scenario.
He thought he was just descending into madness when he longed to meet with his beloved Yunyu once more. The feeling was so strong even though he had never met this man named Bai Yunyu that only appeared in his dream.
Until Yunyu came, his heart instantly told him that his beloved was right in front of him.
Yunyu stared at Long Shen pitifully. Long Shen was a jerk in world 10 as Long Zhen, indeed. Because Long Zhen cheated on him with so many people, that was the reason why he decided to cheat on Huang Shu instead.
Then they entered that short but painful world where he was Tian Dong, Long Shen\'s ugly assistant.
Long Shen was very unstable and acted like a madman most of the time. He mocked Yunyu for the scar on his face, and he even beat Yunyu up when he got mad.
But Yunyu wouldn\'t lie. His petty self went too far and wanted Long Shen to commit suicide 100x until he was satisfied—which Long Shen gladly accepted if that was the meant of forgiveness.
Then he returned to the original world of Long Shen, when his identity was Bai Yunyu again, but with the same ugly scar on his face. It was an arduous road he had to face until Long Shen realized how shallow and superficial he was.
But his time in that world wasn\'t long because Yunyu disappeared right after he reached 100% Fatemeter.
Long Shen slowly got up from the floor, but he didn\'t want to let go. Not after a long separation and this unbearable longing he had to endure.
Long Shen grabbed Yunyu and sat on the sofa. He sat Yunyu on his lap and continued hugging Yunyu, trying to absorb as much warmth as possible.
Long Shen buried his head on Yunyu\'s chest, acting like a spoiled kid who wanted to be coddled.
Yunyu sighed and gently caressed Long Shen\'s hair, "How long do you want us to stay in this position?"
"Forever," Long Shen replied shortly.
"You know that we still have things to do, right? You\'re still my Director in this world. Besides…" Yunyu gulped as he knew that Long Shen wouldn\'t like hearing this.. "I… I can\'t be with you in this world."