Chapter 545
‘How do you accept it\'?
“Now… … haha. It sounds like you\'re talking nonsense.”
“I guess you don’t believe me either.”
“Okay?”
It\'s a claim that you can make because you\'re really young.
Do you even know how hard it is to accept only the present in front of you?
“Master?”
“… … Nope.”
I shook my head and turned around to say let\'s start this class.
At some point, I began to properly teach Elmena as a disciple.
Since I also have pride, I was going to grow it enough to be recognized by the academic society from the beginning.
So, from some point on, I was quite sincere in teaching her.
Maybe it\'s because she reacts straight away.
They said that it would be nice to show them something or teach them something, and before I knew it, I began to think little by little about where to go and what to teach, expecting that reaction.
If that was her intention, I might even say I was perfectly hooked.
Judging from Elmena\'s personality, I don\'t think that\'s going to happen.
‘… … Aren\'t I too shallow?\'
Even though I insist that everything is trivial and boring, if someone makes fun in front of me, do I listen to it again and adjust to it?
Still, I thought it wasn\'t too bad.
At least these days, I haven\'t been living with wrinkles or wrinkles between my eyebrows like before Elmena came.
‘But that won\'t last long either.\'
Time flies.
And again I\'ll be alone
Teaching Elmena is until she achieves her goal properly.
That period is not far off.
Even so, I wouldn\'t suddenly act like a stranger after that day.
But the end is coming.
One day she will die too.
My present life is also over.
And I will start a new life again.
‘That doesn\'t change... …
Let\'s do it... … There will be no answer that will change even if you think about it.
then it comes
that doesn\'t change
Then, at least for now, let\'s look only now and turn our eyes.
Time flies like that, and it\'s been a year since I\'ve been in the middle of a long time.
“Come to think of it, Elmena, are you doing your paper properly for the conference?”
Although I have the feeling that I am asking this belatedly.
Originally, her purpose was to learn knowledge from me and use it as a foundation to achieve recognition.
And to be acknowledged by the Kingdom.
“Are you properly prepared?”
“Of course.”
why are you stuttering
“just joke. I am preparing diligently from time to time. Yesterday, I said to my father,
‘Come on! Now my father will not be able to stop me!\'”
“Why are you challenging your father to a duel?”
Even today, Elmena\'s father\'s agony seems endless.
what. The reason I asked again was that I was not very involved in the content of the thesis she was preparing.
I\'ve recommended it once before.
‘No, that\'s what I have to do!
I\'ll do it myself!\' Surprisingly, Elmena refused first.
She says that it is meaningless unless she achieves it on her own.
I wonder if it\'s only necessary to achieve the goal, but she stubbornly disagreed with that.
You can do it yourself!
He shouted so confidently that I couldn\'t say anything more.
“Don’t regret later, prepare properly.”
“yes yes. I know for sure.”
Elmena hesitated and answered.
I wonder if you really understand... … .
Whether she regrets it or gets a taste of it, in the end, it\'s up to her.
“If you don’t like it, you can learn from Master again!”
“… … Don’t talk nonsense with the feeling of adding another year to your luck.”
“There is no specific time limit. And if Master is still here, there will be no problem.”
As she said, there is no reason for me to leave this place right now.
Originally, it was a situation where I was avoiding myself, but it withered away surprisingly quickly.
Humans quickly forget.
People like me must have already thought that I would have gone to another country.
So, as she said, it doesn\'t matter if I stay here a little longer.
At least for the time being... … It will be fine.
Still, I intend to leave here someday.
“Anyway, for now, I\'m just thinking about getting the best results.”
“yes?.”
“Don’t just answer.”
“yes? yes?.”
I have already raised both hands to this clumsy disciple.
Even if you say that, you really won\'t neglect your work.
If you\'ve known him for about a year, you can figure it out.
“But I’ve been curious since before. Why do you want to go to the academic society?”
“… … You really are asking now.”
Even Elmena was a little taken aback.
Originally, I wasn\'t interested in other people at all.
This was a bit embarrassing for me too.
i am bad
“In the past, I was a little shy, but as I got older, it got less. Some things don\'t even come into my eyes.
you understand.”
“ah? So, does that mean that I am someone who might be interested in you now?”
for a moment? does that happen?
If that\'s the case, then I\'ll be like some kind of naughty teacher.
“… … Okay, answer me.”
Elmena made a slightly proud expression, probably thinking I had changed my words.
In return, I will give you a difficult task sooner or later.
Still oddly smug, Elmena answered my question earlier.
“So is that it? Why is it a society?”
There is no reason to aim only at academic societies.
It\'s good to explore, see and experience.
Then there are plenty of better goals out there.
But why is it a society?
“Actually, there are slightly different reasons.
This is a bit embarrassing for me too.”
“oh my god! Are you ashamed of something?”
“… … Now, that reaction is shocking to me as well. Anyway, there is a reason.
Did I do that before? There was a time when I was sick.”
“Yeah, I can’t believe it.”
I heard that it was quite a troublesome disease, so it was difficult to take all kinds of medicine.
Even her father gave up at one point.
“Anyway. I think the person who gave my father the medicine at that time was someone who works at the Kingdom Society.”
“… … Ho? okay? Was it like that?”
I just quietly listened to what she was saying.
It responds a bit, but that\'s all.
“Is that what it is? Do you want to become an intellectual like him?”
“Why not?”
“No, it’s a surprisingly ordinary joke for you… …
“yes\'?! Are you surprised by that?!”
Elmena had a slightly pouty face, probably thinking it was really too much.
“I think I am a little embarrassed. As expected, things like “I want to conquer the world with my knowledge” and “I want to know forbidden knowledge that I shouldn’t know” would be common.”
“… … What is your standard of shame?”
Isn\'t the shape of the bowl as a human rather than being big?
It\'s not my fault.
He was originally like this.
Maybe I\'m raising a tiger cub... … Unexpectedly, this kid might become a big man.
It was that shameless.
Well, on the other hand, Elmena is genuinely blushing and embarrassed, probably because her story came out after a long time.
There is also a bit of longing mixed with that feeling. “I also
want to be
like the
person
who
gave me the
medicine
. … want to be like that Doesn\'t the friend who gave you the medicine look pretty amazing?”
“Of course, I would like to become well-educated like Master now.”
“… … So why are you talking about me again?”
Aren\'t you really pissed off?
“The friend who gave me the medicine is second… … At least I wouldn’t recommend becoming like me.”
Even jokingly, I couldn\'t tell her to ‘be like me\'.
“… … Elmena Don\'t be like me. Become miserable. Whatever I want to be, I can’t be, and I shouldn’t be.”
“Why do you think so? Every once in a while, Master, you must speak of yourself as if you were cursed.”
“It’s not really that different.”
Come to think of it, I haven\'t told her yet.
Don\'t reveal it unless you have to.
Because that is my basic policy.
The reason why I dare to say this is because Elmena said that she admired me.
“As I said before, I lived quite a long time… … It\'s also very boring.”
If you tell her about her past life, she won\'t understand.
So I just compared myself to having lived a long time.
“At first, I thought it was a blessing. I thought more opportunities came to me than anyone else. But soon, after a long time to the point of vomiting, I found out. Rather, it is like a curse that eats away at my soul.”
“curse… … Are you?”
“Yeah, that\'s terrible. If there is a reason, it is at least comforting. But there is no reason or purpose in my long life. It’s just the situation in front of you.”
I also wish it would have ended with this.
But I know instinctively.
That there is no end.
Perhaps someday this damn fate will come to an end.
Not yet visible.
“Don\'t say it again. you don\'t be like this Just like now, I live as a person who is moved by the trivial things, laughs and knows joy, and ends my life. That will do.”
“Can’t Master?”
“I am already late. To live happily again... … It was too long.”
I don\'t even know what to do now.
“I don’t even know what to do.”
I didn\'t have anything to say to my disciple, but this was the only thing that came out.
There is no way.
I was already in that rut.
“I can\'t find any more meaning.
So don\'t be like me.”
“Master.”
Elmena is about to say something.
But I silently shook my head and told her not to talk.
“Whatever you say… … To me, it\'s nothing more than the words of a kid who doesn\'t know anything yet. You and I are different. It\'s so different.”
“… … Master.”
“I just said something weird. Anyway, at least you work hard so you don\'t end up like me. And you must attend the conference.”
Elmena pursed her lips.
Come to think of it, she was sensitive to seeing others notice.
Could it be that she seemed more miserable than I thought?
“… … Yes, got it.”
She clenched her fists as if holding back what she wanted to say.
Shortly thereafter, Elmena was notified that she had been formally recognized by the Society.
She summarized the medicine she had learned from me and submitted it in her own way.
And the answer seems to have come back now.
A month is pretty quick.
It is proof that the other side is also quite surprised.
“Master! Master! Look at this! Whoa whoop whoop! What is this?”
“… … If you don\'t see it, you\'ll know what it\'s about.”
He was waving the letter in front of me brightly like a puppy that came back with a disk.
I will acknowledge the contents and achievements that I praised Bonama and Elmena a lot.
It\'s probably written roughly.